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OMG 18 na aKO!!!

Time, days, years.. omg! it's goin too fast..
I'm in my legal age na.. pwede na akong bumoto and stuff.
pero hindi parin pwedeng mag alak, mag bf, magpa gabi..
like grr! my parents are so strict.

they still treat me like 13 yrs old.
nakakabanas rin. :(

anyway, this is like an ordinary day for me...
no celebration, no money, nothings new..
everything is so ordinary.
My parents greeted me, and that's all.
I got stuck on this computer just like what i do everyday..
so sad.. it makes me feel like i don't exist..
ano ba naman ang bumili manlang kami sana ng konting pagsasaluhan diba?
uggh.. i really am not happy na ganto nalang ang 18th bday ko..
haaysst..

i'll just think of the brighter side,
lot of kids rin naman don't have a chance to celebrate
their birthdays.. lots of them don't have a chance to eat yummy foods
from different caterers.. it's because of poverty..

pero kung my kaya ka why not celebrate diba?

it really makes me sad talga to think na hindi manlang binigyan
ng halaga ang bday ko pero if sa mga kapatid ko they make efforts pa para
mag order ng foods sa resto's. tss...

how i wish my work na ako, that i earn my own money
para i can buy stuff for myself and i can celebrate my bday with my own expenses.
haayst... :(

LONG LOST WORDS

PAROXYSM | ORIGINAL

It's funny how silence can make you realize a lot of things that you thought are just nothing.
How music can bring all the past back. And how the air blows out just to make your eyes a lil bit teary..
and all of a sudden, while you are there alone.. listening to your song,
you stared at nowhere and in one particular reason, you thought about him..

blah.blah.blah

It's funny how time fly so fast that you didn't notice your getting
older, weaker, sadder..
then as that time passed, realization of how stupid you become arises
when you left a page of your diary that has an unsaid statement saying...

blah.blah.blah

"i love you very much, i tried to tell you that a million times but you kept on saying were just friends.. though it hurts me so much.. i still choose to just leave it as is, so that it would be much easier for me to let go even if i don't want to.. i know it's stupid to love you but what can i do?
you make it so easy for me to fall for you everyday.. with just a simple smile of yours makes my heart bit a little faster, and just the way your eyes glance at me when i walk on the corridor of our department makes me feel so special that i can't even resist to glance back at you..
it's not easy, if only you knew how long I've kept this from you.. :'( "

blah.blah.blah

... and wished for that abandoned moment to return...
So lame.. to think that you already had the time to say it but you let it pass you by..

blah.blah.blah

You see, it's really funny that you cried for the same guy for almost a year and yet you haven't done
anything else to change the situation..
and then you'll say to your self "i'll get over him soon" but after seeing him for a minute, you start to fall for him even harder..

blah.blah.blah
LOVE ... it's so unpredictable and complicated..
when you already have it, you try to set it aside,
and when its gone, you try to win it back... so ironic..

blah.blah.blahblah.blah.blah
blah.blah.blah blah.blah.blah
blah.blah.blablah.blah.blah

READ IT AND UNDERSTAND IT.

PART: 1

1. “Ang mag-assume, TALO (kahit 2% pa yan).”

2. “Kung ayaw may DAHILAN, kung gusto may PARAAN.”

3. “Wag masyado magpadala sa text.”

4. “BACK OFF (as in back off) sa mga IN A RELATIONSHIP, kahit saan anggulo mo tingnan, ikaw pa rin ang mali.”

5. “Never borrow someone else’s man/girl. If he/she cheated with you, he’ll/she’ll cheat on you.”

6. “Hayaan mo siyang gawin yung gusto niyang gawin. Buhay niya yun, hindi mo maco-control. As long as alam niya yung limitations niya.”

7. “Take it slow. Steady lang.”

8. “Maniwala sa IT’S COMPLICATED na status. Hindi lang chenes yan.”

9. “Learn to LET GO kung alam mong wala na talaga.”

10. “Keep your DIGNITY.”

11. “If a man/woman wants you, nothing can keep him/her away. If he/she doesn’t want you, nothing can make him/her stay.”

12. “Wag magselos sa siblings and relatives ng boyfriend/girlfirend mo.”

13. “Ang QT (quality time), at least 5 hours lang per week.”

14. “Don’t revolve your life around him/her. Learn to be independent.”

15. “Hindi dahilan ang TIME.”

16. “Kung ayaw sayo ng kapatid, hayaan mo siya. Wala siyang magagawa kung mahal ka talaga niya.”

17. “Wag magpakilala sa parents agad. It can affect your relationship.”

18. “Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Kadalasan tama ito mga girls.”

19. “Be nice to your EX. Wag maging BITTER.”

20. “If a relationship ends because the man/woman was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you can’t “be friends”. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. At some case this is applicable.”

21. “Wag magpadala sa SITUATION. Baka overwhelmed ka lang.”

22. “Stop making excuses for a man/woman and his/her behavior. Paminsan-minsan take off your helmet.”

23. “When you meet anyone, remember it’s a holy encounter. As you treat them you will treat yourself. As you think of them, you think of yourself. Never forget this, for in them you will find yourself or lose yourself.”

24. “Hindi balakid kung magkaiba ang RELIGION niyong dalawa.”

25. “Kung kayang i-workout, i-WORKOUT!” Kalokohan ang reason na “IT’S NOT YOU, IT’S ME.”

26. “All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending… compromise is a two way street.”

27. “Learn to forgive para magkaroon ka ng peace of mind.”

28. “Some can forgive but can’t forget.”

29. “If something bothers you, speak up! Mahirap kapag nagpapakiramdaman lang kayo.”

30. “OPEN COMMUNICATION, TRUST AND HONESTY are the most important ingredients in a relationship.”

31. “You need time to heal between relationships. There is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship pag hindi kasi, it can affect or even ruin your relationship.”

32. “Okay lang na magselos, basta yung pakilig lang.”

33. “Always have your own set of friends separate from his/her para may iba kang channels that is without him/her.”

34. “Make him/her miss you sometimes. when a man/woman always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him/her, he/she takes it for granted.”

35. “Always make time for your family and friends.”

36. “You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you. a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. look for someone complimentary. not supplementary.”

37. “Always make time for yourself.”

38. “Wala yun sa tagal ng relationship. nasa pagmamahal.”

39. “There’s NO SUCH THING as MR. RIGHT or MS. RIGHT. It’s how you mold him/her to become rightfully for you.”

40. “There’s NO SUCH THING as COOL OFF/GRAY AREA. Kung white, white! Kung black, black! Walang GRAY AREA.”

41. “Always think a number of times before deciding on to something important.”

42.”There’s a possibility that a person can get attracted to another. It’s human nature. It’s not wrong. But that is why you’re in a commitment, you discipline yourself. One may get attracted to numerous prospects and it’s okay. As long as, you don’t nurse the feeling and do something about it. Borderline between cheating and faithfulness. Recognize reality that you already have the person that can give you more than what you get for the cheap thrill of attraction.”

43. “You need to let go of the past to have a future.”

44. “Do not take anyone for granted.”

45. “If what you see by the eye doesn’t please you, then close your eyes and see from the heart. Because the heart can see beauty and love more than the eyes can ever wonder.”

46. “If you felt it, then it was true. Getting hurt doesn’t always mean you suffered, it also means you loved sincerely. Don’t frown because it’s over. SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED.”

47. “KARMA (whatever you do) will find its way.”

48. “Everything will fall into place.”


PART: 2

1. A man won’t let go if he really loves you.

Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you. He does not love you and does not value having you. Believe me, he will not let go if he really loves you. There is another reason he is not willing to tell.

2. Do not look for reasons why he ended the relationship.

There is only one reason why he ended your relationship. He just does not love you. Do not waste your time thinking of reasons or what you should have done.Move on and be open to a man who will truly love you.

3. Do not get hung up on your past.

Do not nag or distrust your current boyfriend just because your ex hurt you. Do not treat him or the relationship the same way. Do not compare. He will not react the same way as your ex. Do not be worried that your simple mistakes will cause him to look for another girl. What happened with your ex was not your fault. It was not because you didn’t guard him enough or you didn’t make him happy enough.

4. Do not look into images.

How many times have you met a girl who didn’t have the best image in school or at the office, but you get to know the girl and found out she was actually extremely nice? Do not rely on images. Oftentimes, it is far from reality. Do not fear men just because your “supposedly” perfect ex-boyfriend mistreated you.

5. Always have your own set of rules.

Set your limits on how far you’d go for a guy. It’s perfectly okay to give and do everything as long as it’s worth it. And it’s worth it if the guy is treating you right.

6. Do not be scared to lose him.

Don’t be scared that he’ll break up with you. Once you are afraid of losing him, you easily can be taken advantage. Be strong and if something is unacceptable, do not accept it and speak up.

7. Avoid calling your guy.

It’s a guy thing. The relationship will definitely be better if it’s the guy who’s calling, not the girl. He will get tired of you if you keep on calling. He will lose interest and challenge. More so, he will get annoyed. But it’s a girl thing also that your fingers get too itchy until you dial his number. But avoid as much as possible. Call only if really needed (like checking if your suspicions are reasonable).

8. There is a guy who will value you.

There is a guy out there who can make you feel valued, appreciated, and loved. And I mean, not just during your first few weeks together. So don’t lose hope. Don’t settle for a lesbian if you are not attracted to women. There is a man out there who can love you like a girl can.

Also, do not believe him when he says it’s just the way he really is. He’s not the sweet or expressive-type. Remember during your first few weeks together? Where has that sweet guy gone? He simply is not that into you anymore.

9. Always be the only one, no matter what.

Do not ever fall for a guy who has another girl, be it his wife, girlfriend, or any girl that he says he just can’t get rid of for whatever reason. If you truly believe that he loves you and for some reason, he can’t leave or let go of another girl, then you are no different from any ordinary mistress.

10. He must respect you.

No matter how long the relationship has been, he should always show respect towards you.

11. If he fooled you, end it.

Philandering once is enough. You can never trust nor respect the person again.

12. Never start a relationship the wrong way.

Do not steal another girl’s man, for whatever reason. Nor should you enter a relationship for the wrong reasons (loneliness, on the rebound, getting back at your ex, man-dependency, etc.) it is bound not to last. You will only end up wasting more years of your life.

13. Do not force yourself into a relationship.

Do not get into a relationship just because your friends are getting impatient with your dating escapades and the one hasn’t come yet. Do not choose who to say yes to based on superficial things like money, looks, cars, etc.. If you are even thinking of these things, you have not fallen in love yet.

14. Do not settle.

If you are not happy anymore with your relationship, break up instantly. He will not stay with you forever no matter how upright he might seem to be. Eventually, he will also want love and happiness in his life.

15. A relationship has to have love.

Love is the only thing that will push you to give your efforts into making the relationship work. And believe me, keeping a relationship requires genuine efforts of both parties.

16. Don’t be afraid to be single.

It’s fun to be single, try it. You can go out whenever and wherever you want. You are free. You can date whomever you want and you get to go out for free! Do not get a boyfriend just for the sake of having one. Do not settle.

17. Be a good girl.

Be a good girl to attract a good guy. Enter the relationship with sincere intentions. Take the guy and the relationship seriously with the plan of spending the rest of your life with that person (of course, this is after you had your bit of fun in your younger years). If you compare your flings from your real relationships, you will know that the latter makes you happier and more fulfilled.

18. Love without limits.

Whether you loved and gave everything or loved but held out for some things, if the relationship ends, you’ll still get hurt. But if you gave your everything, you were happy and you could say that it was worth it. If you didn’t give your all, you get hurt for nothing.

19. You will get over him.

Love is over-stated. Love eventually ends and you are free to love another.

20. Be the one.

Act like you are the one. Don’t be a nagger. Don’t hinder his gimmicks. Don’t give in to him too easily. Make him treat you as important. Don’t be easy. Don’t be like every other girl he had in his life.

"Ito ay isang Obserbasyon lamang at sana ay mabigyang pansin at maaksyonan ang bagay na ito. Hindi ko gustong siraan oh pasamahin ang Unibersidad na aking pinapasukan, gusto ko lang talgang bigyan ng nararapat na aksyon ang mga gantong bagay. xP"

Kriiing! kriiing!! [toinkx!]
Tunog ng bell.. hudyat na ito ng mahaba habang break..

Nagpunta kami sa kantin, kumain, kwentuhan at syempre
di mawawala ang paghahagilap sa mga kraszZ namin^^

Pagkatapos kumain, nagpasama ang aking isa sa mi.Galaxia para
magbayad ng kanyang balance sa kanyang twisyon..

Nasa pangatlong palapag kami ng Main Building at syempre
kitang kita dun ang ilang istudyanteng nakapila. Sinundan namin ang dulo ng pila
at Diyos ko po! umabot ito sa Science building ikalawang palapag
ng gusali at nilagpasan pa nito ang opisina ng SAO!
Eh ang Cashier ng main building eh nasa ika apat na palapag!

Mahaba habang pilahan nanaman!
Dahil mabait ako (ehem!) siyempre sinamahan ko naman yung kaibigan ko na mi.Galaxia
habang nasa pila, walang humpay na kwentuhan nanaman upang
maibaling lang ang pagka inip sa keh haba-habang pila..

Nagtaka na ako.. dahil sobrang bagal ng usad ng pila eh may apat naman kaming pagbabayaran.

Nung nakarating na kami sa ika apat na palapag kung saan
nandon ang Cashier, napatanga nalang ako at naasar dahil bukas naman pala yung apat na
pagbabayaran ngunit iisa lamang ang nageencode sa mga inaabot na bayad!

anak ng pusa oh! Bakit pa sila gumawa gawa ng apat na pagbabayaran kung
hindi naman pala ginagamit yung tatlo? hindi ba't sa mga panahong bayaran na ng twisyon fee
eh dapat kompleto ang taga encode? ano pang silbi at naglagay lagay pa sila ng computer
sa bawat Cashier kung hindi naman pala gagamitin sa tamang oras at tamang panahon?

Hindi rason na nag lunch break ang mga taga encode dahil lagpas alas Dos na nung mga oras na yun.
maslalong hindi pwede irason na sira ang kompyuter dahil meron tayong tao sa maintenance na agad kumukumpuni ng mga sira oh my depektong kompyuter.

Hindi ko talga matanto kung bakit ganon na lamang ang sistema sa tuwing bayaran na ng twisyon fee..
Oo nga at magdadalawang taon palang ako sa Unibersidad na yun ngunit sadyang ganun nalamang
ang estado ng bayaran na aking naobserbahan tuwing malapit na ang exam.

Huwag na huwag rin kayong magkakamaling ipataw sa amin ang kasalanan na huli kaming nagbabayad
dahil alam ko na alam nyo rin na hindi otomatik ang paglalabas ng pera.. Pawis, Pagod at pagsisikap
ng aming mga magulang ang kelangan upang makahanap ng ganung halaga lalo pa't tri-sem kami.

Sana ito'y pagtuunan ng pansin. Kung kami nga lumiban sa klase eh kelangan pa namin ng explanasyon, kayo pa kaya na mga empleyado na.. sus..

Hindi po ako galit. xD nagoobserba lang^^
[peace]^^


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